So I went out to tell Kevin and instead of getting sad and telling him about my eyes, but then I yelled at Kevin for?? Oh no! here comes CRAZY... I got mad at Kevin because we haven't touched in a week (he's been super sick too). Also because I want another baby (we agreed to wait until December, so really a non-issue). ALSO because I'm fat and he "let's" me drink 4 Dr. Peppers a day. Also because I hate work and want him to tell me to quit. (he's told me to about 10 times).
I have never in my life taken stupid s*!t out on anyone, but by 10 I was in full blown tears (eyes swollen, boogers etc). Over things that are not true and not a big deal.
Then I feel asleep and oh the dreams!!!! Wow, one after another, after another about having a baby. One where I delivered in the car on the way to the hospital. One where Kevin wasn't there until 3 days after. The worst I had an emergency c-section where I was drugged up so much I don't remember the whole thing. So when I wake up they just show me a paper with the baby's stats. Oh it's a BOY I didn't know, and what 11pounds 15ounces!
WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO ME LAST NIGHT?????
Anyone have any advice for this whole debacle I called my Tuesday night???
3 comments:
i have no words of wisdom for you, i'm just so sorry because i have been where you are but in different ways. when i read this i could feel it because i understand it. so sorry!
i'm really worried about your eyes!
Ang,
first of all...yes, get your eyes checked out.
Secondly, my friend did deliver her babe in the parking lot of a 7eleven just over a year ago. and it all went well.
Lastly, it happens to all of us. We get caught up in being a mom and forget that we are women and then it blows up.
Hang in there...kiss your hubby and apologize and then go to bed.
Much much better night lastnight. Worked hard, came home and slept. Now I have until Monday off. I will get my eyes checked, promise.
xoxo
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